QueLinda Bella

I have been thinking of you,
And the way you make me feel.
I'm getting scared now
Cause these feelings feel so real,
I've always felt it,
But it's never been this strong
I cannot fall now
I've got to hold on.
When my eyes are on you
It's so hard to look away.
When its time too leave you
I so badly want to stay.
I want to tell you
What's running through my head
But for now I'll just keep it to myself instead,
Cause I want nothing to jeopardize
The friendship that we created over the years,
And I don't want to be left
Heartbroken and in tears.
I want you to know how I feel,
And that I mean it, sometimes
I just want to scream it, its real.
These words have been bottled up inside
They explain the feelings I hide
And the failed times I've tried.
I don't know how much longer I will keep this in,
Thinking of ways,
Don't know where to begin.
Deeply confused,
Don't know what to do,
I'll just leave it be, wait and see,
It will happen if it's meant to be.
I have your friendship,
But I really want your heart
This is tearing me apart;
I don't know what to do
I just want to be with you,
Make you happy and make you smile.
Though times I cant see you for a while,
Its only cause my hearts desires can't be filled.
It's hard to know you're with someone else
When all I want is you here with me,
I want to show you what this could be;
I don't want to tell you
I want you to just open up your eyes and see.
I want you to feel it,
The feelings that I feel,
I really want to show them,
These feelings are so real.
But I can't show you,
I probably never will because
I want to walk, but your standing still.
These are the feelings inside of me,
That are locked away
Waiting to be free,
Drowning my heart in misery.

ou'll never judge anything I say and you'll let me be
Every feeling for you I make sure to show
You are the smile on my face if I ever feel low

You're a person who is the best so true and kind
Your love and soul took me 3 years to find
Yet the whole time you were standing in front of me
Yet to the world around us it was so obvious to see

I'm lost in your eyes each time I connect with your heart
In my heart heart and mind you'll always be a part
These feelings continue to grow to the love of my life
You are my sunshine who took away all my strife

You are my eternal life the smile of my soul
Its your presence and love that keeps me whole
You are the dream I see every single night
A love between you and me I must hold tight

I fall in love with you every time I see your face
In your heart and mind I'll be and no other place
You are my should to cry on, we were meant to be
Forever in each others heart, baby thank you for loving me

Where to start?
The seventh grade, your quirky sence of style and your passion for life drew my to you.
Your smile, was so warm and inviting, I could almost feel myself melt into it when you smiled.
Your eyes, the blackest of black, showed your every emotion.
We were almost nothing alike, we didnt have the same friends, sence of style, or love for music.
But I was drawn to you.
Some might have called it a schoolgirls crush, others a joke..but there was feeling there, a feeling that I never felt before.
You told your friends that you liked me, and they turned their noses up at me, being in a different group was hard, but we wanted it so badly.
December 12th, the school dance, you made me the happiest girl ever, we were finally together.
You were my first kiss, you held a special place in my heart.
A month and a half had passed, we were arguing constantly, and I being the fool that I was, broke it off with you.
A short 2 weeks later, when I was thinking about apoliqizing, I got the call.
"Hes dead" She cried,
"found in his living room"
My world became blurry, my eyes opened up like floodgates.
My knees got weak, and I wept.
Saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing that I have ever done. Your face so pale and lifeless, your smile that once welcomed all, was now cold and lifeless. Your eyes, showed no emotion.
Two years later, I think of everyday, and I Still Miss You